Was it you that kept me wondering through this life? 2006-09-25, 6:34 p.m. My sis left for her secret retreat. Good for her.... I wish I am also going for a retreat to think through some things that are confusing me, which is mainly my career path. I feel that these few weeks, I have not placed God in my first priority, more on enjoyment in the world... I think its about time for me to start a prayer journal to get myself focusing. Even at work, I dont feel like working. It is driving me crazy... God, please help me. I find it funny that you expect me to find more students to enroll to our courses, and yet become fussy at the students, the parents. If I keep losing students, what's the point if I keep gaining students... There is no logic behind this at all... Musicians think they are high and mighty... like they can do anything they want, and people will just accept it. but they fail to realise that music is not neccessity, it is a luxury. People dont take music because it will let them live on this earth, they take it cos they have this interest to take it up as hobby, or they want their children to earn money from it... I made a mistake at the restaurant. :( I am so sad. I cant figure what is wrong with me. I am saying the correct thing, but my hand is writing the wrong thing. Isnt it ironic, when the staff ask you to eat the pizzas that were made by my mistake? How can I eat my own mistake? I just couldnt... But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally This isn't how it's really meant to be No it isn't how it's really meant to be Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear How to pull it close and make it stay If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why Was it you that kept me wondering through this life When you know that I was always on your side Sheryl Crow - Always On Your Side last - next